Writing Checks That I Hope My Self Sabotaging Ass Can Cash
- Spiritual Journey Of A Slut
- Jun 29, 2021
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Updated: Sep 25, 2021
What’s a bitch to do?
On this weird journey, I’m broke. Which is ironically what I spoke into existence when I said like a week ago that I only want just enough money: no more no less… and rent is due…
and what does a bitch do if she doesn’t have rent money… Put the good pussy on the landlord for rent, duh lol. just kidding. Move out. The universe is pushing for me to leave here. Bad.
I’ve had unemployment plus the extra pandemic money each week available to me if I just FILLED OUT THE DAMN WEEKLY CERTIFICATION. I kept telling myself… you’ll get it caught up. You don’t need the money. It’ll be nice getting a lump sum at once.
I sat down with my self sabotaging ass multiple times over the last weeks to get caught up. Never even got 1 filed. And I have had since the end of April to now to do it.
So I decided since I can’t stop self sabotaging myself into oblivion, I was going to pay my friend $50 to fill all mine out. He logged on and the unemployment website says
“you have passed the 6 week time frame to get your money for the prior weeks.”
(I’m paraphrasing)
So um hi I’m broke but I also can’t care too much or I’ll actually freak out. I’m just going with it. If I have to move out here in a few days… then that’s what I’ll do.
I am trying so hard to lean into what I know is good for me which would be to get the fuck out of here and figure it out and never come back.
It’s scary though.
Especially when my car is anything but ready to go anywhere farther than a couple hours away. I haven’t had my oil changed in forever, I don’t have the money now. I need brakes… like months ago. I also have a storage unit I can’t afford.
I asked my friend if he wanted to go on a “soul searching journey” when all this started. He said yes. Well, he is interviewing in a few hours for a job position he really wanted. So if he gets that, no soul searching friend for me. I’m happy for him. But, it’s me and just me it is. Oh well I guess. Wish me luck or good vibes or whatever.
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